Stilwende

A look back at a stay in New York. Thirty years have passed. In the company of his lover, the filmmaker explores the remains of the past in pursuit of lost emotions and delivers a disturbing and hypnotic essay.

In German, "Stilwende" means "change of style". In 1981, the director was 24 years old and lived in New York for a year. He still keeps the super 8 images filmed by his visiting father and the letters he wrote to his parents during that year. He returned in 2011 and filmed in video. But things have changed and he is no longer who he used to be. But who did he want to be? Who was that double who was trying to break out? Another period of time - before he was born - comes to the fore.